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My goodness, I can't believe I'm leaving for Durham tomorrow already! But it's true. The time is upon me. I'm looking forward to seeing Lissa & Jay, and seeing Jaybird in Loves Labours Lost. I keep meaning to ask him what the hell company he's doing it for; whether he's doing it for Shakespeare & Originals (his own company) or for the college, for some other company? I guess I'll find out tomorrow!

Sad news this week from my dear friend Kevin Lageman. His temporary gig is coming to an end at the end of November. I know that doesn't sound like it should be a great shock, given that it's a temp gig, but he'd been led to believe that it was an indefinite assignment, and I get the impression that it was the assurance of that gig that made his move to New York City seem more feasible.

I don't think he understands just how saleable he is - I've said this to him, and he's probably reading it again here - but I think he's gonna do just fine. I just want to get him and Kirsten settled and happy here in New York so we can send him off to work in regional theater. I think he's gonna find there's a gold mine out there for him (in much the same way I think there's a gold mine for me there, too), but that remains to be seen. He's nobly decided to forego out-of-town work for a while to give himself and Kirsten both a chance to get settled into the city, and I think that's a wise choice, really. I just hope that happens sooner rather than later.

New York's a hard city to be a talented actor in; there are a lot of them out there, and many of them have agents, which makes their struggled just a little easier. But a lot of them aren't all that good, either, so that makes me feel a little better about my chances - and, by extension, Kevin's.

Which leads me to something I've been thinking about. How do you tell someone how much you esteem them without sounding like some sort of freak? I mean, I love Kevin and Kirsten, but feel the need, when putting that out there, to make sure you know that means "as friends." Is it my own fucked-upedness that makes me feel it's necessary to tack that on, or do we live in a world that discourages us from feeling genuine love for someone outside our own families, or other than our lovers?

Well, as I'm feeling a little fearless, I don't have any compunction against saying so: Kevin and Kirsten Lageman are great friends to me, and I love them for it. It's why I would be profoundly sad to see them ever leave New York City - even though we they and I have both said plainly we're probably not going to live here forever. I guess I'm just feeling a little sorry for myself, having, in the last year, left all of my lifelong friends behind to make this move - my delight at having these friends here seems fragile and precious.

Anyway, it's not something we have to deal with for a long time... their lease runs another 1½ years!